On Matters Sexual

There are in each of us personae who are masculine and those that are feminine.  Our bodies are one or the other except in rare instances but the personae are not physical and may be either.

There are probably many personae of each persuasion.  And to call the tendency masculine or feminine may be erroneous but there is not a better terminology to use.  There are tendencies toward active and passive, hard and soft, tough and tender in response to situations but even these don't give a satisfactory frame of reference so we use masculine and feminine and all that these terms imply.

There are cases where the male body has a predominance of female personae to the extent that he takes on the personality of a woman and vice-versa.  There have been physical sex changes for some of the more extreme cases.

There have been, in my experience, instances where hormonal balance was slightly out of kilter and women have had to shave what can only be described as whiskers off of their faces and men have taken on the bodily characteristics of women due to sebaceous fat.  It only stands to reason that after a trillion or so iterations that there are anomalies of varying degrees.

Often told that there is a feminine side to all men and a masculine side to all women by authors and therapists and coming slowly to admit it after observing it in me and others; I've finally arrived at an understanding of it.  Rather than try to express it here and open Pandora’s Box, I will simply say that I understand it and leave it at what has already been written.

The Sexual source of the brain-body, as with the others, is affected by external impressions and internal physical conditions that cause personae to be stimulated.  For men the conditions could be a full supply of semen and associated hormonal levels that illicit pressures for ejaculation; and for women ovulation and the secretion of hormones associated with that event could illicit what is felt as a need for fulfillment.  Thus it can be reasoned that the need for sexual expression may be induced by imagination or by bodily conditions or both, one preceding the other depending on the circumstances of the moment.

The chain of events may also be put into motion by genetic memory of another who by chance is encountered in a present life but was also a partner in a relationship in a past life.  This is reasonable but  arguable but nonetheless needs to be stated.  One could surmise that "love" could occur for this reason as well as many other reasons related to current and past existences.

Feed Me!

We have discussed appetites in a previous entry and the appetites of which we wrote are all of them, the sensual pleasures that are sought.  As long ago as Aristotle, the need for moderation was seen.  As one looks around the world today, one can see that many, many individuals have thrown out the notion of moderation.

Evidence to support this is observable in obesity, alcoholism, drug addiction, sexual addiction, addiction to tobacco and the nicotine contained therein, dependency and, just to sum it all up in religious terms, unbridled participation in the deadly sins of envy, gluttony, greed, lust, pride, sloth,  and wrath.

It isn't difficult to slip into this chasm of self-indulgence; it is encouraged by people who are selling things.  A whole profession, marketing, has sprung up with the specific intention of creating a desire for products and services; making it seem not only alright but downright advantageous to get whatever they are selling.  Just like at casinos, there are a number of people who succumb to the message in a fruitless effort to satisfy some missing ingredient in their life.

On the other hand, there is a mechanism in our brain-body that signals a need for something.  It can be on any level, intellectual, emotional, moving, social, sexual, or instinctive and it can be real.  It is when this need is felt that some action is taken.  When the being senses that safety and/or security is threatened it’s like a WWII navy movie when the command, "Man your battle stations!" is heard.  And even this response is emotional. Observing all of the actions taken, it is seen that the motivation for action is emotional. 

This is not a secret.  Salespeople the world over know that decisions to buy (act) are made emotionally; sell the sizzle not the steak, what color would you like it to be.  Yes a need is being satisfied, even if it is artificially stimulated, but the motivation to satisfy it is emotional. 

The emotional source is closely linked to the five senses of touch, taste, smell, sight, and sound.  And what need do we meet most frequently?  To eat.  The need for nutrition; we eat three, four, or five times every day of our lives.  We get hungry and we use any means available to satisfy that need and we use all of our senses to do it.

Hunger can stem from a nutritional need, and/or memory, a smell or picture recalls to us how great s.t. tasted; it can stem from a need for fats, carbohydrates, proteins, certain vitamins, minerals, and bulk that are lacking and signals via suggestions come to us to eat this or that.

A large segment of our society continues the age old industries of production, processing, marketing, distribution, preparation, and serving food.  And they do it using all the senses to gratify, satisfy, sate the hunger that each of us feels daily.

It is an interesting chain of events that leads to the table.  The farmer looks at a field of weeds but imagines the possibility of neat rows of vegetables, or looks at grazing land and imagines a herd of meat animals, or knowing the results plants an orchard for fruit or nuts.  His imagination starts with sight and he sees the results before even beginning the process and his harvest proves his vision to be correct.

Butchers look at animals on the hoof and imagine carcasses to be carved into cuts of meat that please the eye of the shopper.  Green grocers see bushels and piles and imagine the fruits and vegetables arranged attractively to please the eye of the shopper.  Processors buy bulk quantities of foodstuffs and produce colorful packages to attract the eye of the shopper.  Once more sight is the sense that is used to attract.

The cook selects meats, vegetables, fruits, fats, and staples that he/she knows are necessary for the preparation of the meal.  The selection at the market is based on sight, then touch, then smell.  Once the tests are satisfied, the foodstuffs are taken to the kitchen where the meal is prepared.

Sight, touch, taste, smell, and even hearing from time to time are used by the cook as the meal is prepared.  To achieve the desired end result he relies on his knowledge and experience as his senses affirm the satisfactory preparation of the meal.

Enter the diner.  Invited to a room that is suitably furnished with attractive furniture, table linen, china, silverware, and crystal, decorated with candles and flowers he or she takes a place at the table enjoying the visual presentation and the company of the other diners.   Wafting in from the kitchen are the aromas of the meal, causing the imagination to already begin salivation and enjoyment of the meal, even before the first course is brought in.

Then the food arrives displayed in serving bowls and on platters in an attractive way.  All that is necessary for an enjoyable and nourishing meal is available to the diner; besides the food there are various fluids that enhance the taste and ingestion of the meal.

At last, when appropriate to do so, the final sense is stroked, the sense of taste.  At the point of taking the first bite the diner has been tantalized by sight, smell, sound, and feel—now finally he receives the final grace, the taste.

And then it goes into the mouth where it is chewed, mixed with saliva, and becomes an unrecognizable mish-mash of pulp that is swallowed and staged to go into the stomach.  The allure of the senses is gone, now it’s down to the business of digesting, assimilating what is necessary, and discarding what is not.  It was all a ruse to get nutrients into the being.

What Dreams May Come

If one thinks of the being as comprised of spiritual and physical components, where the spiritual manifests an aim using the physical and that these manifestations are evoked by the secretion of various mixtures of bodily fluids, then one has a basic understanding of how it works.

Spiritual is a word chosen without its religious connotations because there is the physical, i.e. matter and energy governed by the laws of physics, and there is the “non-physical,” that which is not and that is referred to here as spiritual.

These spiritual components can empirically be divided into intellectual, emotional, moving, social, sexual, and instinctive sources where each operates, more or less, independently of the other but the resulting secretions are a mixture influenced by all six. 

Some manifestations are heavily weighted toward one or the other of these sources but there are seldom, if any, times when a manifestation is caused totally one or even two of these sources but influenced by all in varying degrees.

Recalling the color palette, there are hundreds, even thousands of hues available from combinations of primary colors.  It is a simple step to realize the legions of reactions that are available from the mixture of six primary sources and that each reaction is a persona, created and stored for possible future use.  This lifetime is an expression of all of them.  For a thought provoking development of some of these sources, referred to as centers, read The Fourth Way by Ouspensky.

 

One will not find the aspect presented there of the spiritual/ physical dichotomy.  Nowhere in my reading of Fourth Way is the spiritual and physical dichotomy explained as the way Master, Driver, and Critic continue the development of the being.

Personae are created in order to cope with situations that are presented to the being and there are thousands of them created during a lifetime.  There are some that are used over and over; these become the recognizable personality of the named individual along with other recognizable features. 

Some personae become a permanent part of the being.  I’m not sure how or why this happens, but they become so much a part of the being that when the brain-body dies these, along with Master, continue to exist and may inhabit another brain-body to continue development until enough critical mass is achieved to move on to the next plane of existence.

In this lifetime, actions are taken by the brain-body because the spiritual component causes them.  This accounts for any and all actions taken.  The brain-body cannot in and of itself do anything.  Even the automatic body functions are the result of the spiritual component setting in place the mechanism by which they are accomplished.

It could be that the beginning of Master’s existence was with the first persona that became permanent; it could have been this lifetime or an indeterminate number of lifetimes ago.  That there has been more than one explains the incidents of “remembering.”

Genetic memory is another, and separate, phenomenon that is part and parcel of this wondrous being.  An example of this can be found in “A Parallel Life” posted on http://openfloodgate.blogspot.com/2013/04/a-parallel-life.html.

My normal posts are 1000 words, more or less, and there’s lots of room left here to continue to develop a new idea that is in process right now.

The idea of auto-suggestion, also known as self-hypnosis, also known as affirmation, also known as self-talk is presently at the fore for me.  The prospect of incorporating it along with these beliefs came through to me recently and there is a procedure that I am following.  How this works out will be seen in the future and it may be advisable for me to wait until I have the results to talk about it; but no, as usual I will forge ahead with my dissertation.

First premise: The dreams of the being are consistent with the development of Master.  Second premise: there is the above mentioned dichotomy between the spiritual and physical aspects of the being.  Third: the being is capable of stepping into the gap between the physical and the spiritual.

So this is the procedure:  Relaxing the brain-body, imagine that you are ascending along with all of the personae that you have and as you ascend, personae leave your company according to their most prominent feature.  At the first level, those associated most closely with the instinctive leave; at the second—the sexual, at the third—the social, the fourth—the moving, the fifth—the emotional, and the sixth—the intellectual.  Now as you, driver and critic without other personae, stand alone at the highest level in the vague presence of Master with a view as if from the top of the highest mountain, you repeat your dream.

The syntax of the dream is important only that it convey an accurate image of your dream.  Our brain uses words to evoke images; it is the image that we are creating that contains the dream and to which the spiritual component relates.  That image is what he will maneuver to realize.

Throughout this lifetime there have been images impressed upon me that were so strong that one day I realized that what I now had was the fulfillment of the image that I’d had.  The achievement of of what was necessary for that image to become real was not the result of a step by step campaign of which I was aware but rather a step by step campaign of which I wasn't aware except that deep in my mind there was that impression.

It is this impression that the procedure is meant to make.

My expectation is that it will and this is why I am now involved in making the effort.  By recalling my experiences above and linking them to my experiment, I firmly believe that this may be the secret to which “The Secret” refers.

  

My hypothesis is that the dream has to contain rich imagery, have content that has been experienced, even if experiences to date have to be extrapolated to the desired level, be as real as one can make them, and be taken-up one dream at a time to avoid confusion.

It would behoove one to have just a few important dreams to be realized until this capability is honed and then there is reason to believe that it could be used for many dreams.

And Then There's Death

Let’s talk for a moment about the death of the brain-body.  What happens at death?  The biochemical reactions of the body stop; perhaps not all at once and there may be a shutdown sequence and when that is complete it’s over

At some point the body, if put in a separate container, say a vault in the ground or a crypt in a mausoleum, would reach a point of no longer reacting with the environment around it.  If put in the ground, all of it that could be would be dissolved, absorbed, or otherwise carried away for further use.

Including the six or so billion people alive today there have probably been more than a trillion people alive at some point during the history of humanity.  None of us added a single atom to the total number that make up Earth. 

Except for a few pieces of equipment that have been sent to outer space, including the moon, and a few pieces of meteors that have made it through the atmosphere, the Earth is of the same composition as it has been since the grand collision of planets x and y that formed Earth and its moon.  All of our existence is within this same stockpile of material. 

The body is continually renewing the parts, organs and tissue, that wear out so even the body that is sitting here is not the same that it was last year or even six months ago.  It takes what it needs from nutrients and discards what it doesn't.  And so it goes for a body for up to 120 years or so when it is incapable of continuing the processes.

Among all of the features of this body, there are some that add flavor to this life we are living.  The senses, coupled with memory, including genetic memory, imagination, and decision making capability allow us to experience a lifetime; to know what is going on in and around us in this physical world, react to it emotionally, and adapt to it and cope with it. 

Of these, the senses are probably the most basic and convey to the mind impressions of what is going on around us.  Sensations combined with communication, starting with language and then over distance and even time, using criers, or drums, or runners, or paper, or telegraph, or digital technology allow the exchange of knowledge of what has happened, is happening, or probably will happen and allows us to imagine, apply reason, and take action.

One can only speculate what it would be like to live without the senses.  A young man in Louisville was born without eyes, yet he is an accomplished musician and capable of complex and abstract thinking.  Even one sense would allow one to experience life because it is the mind that does this, not the brain-body. 

The senses feed the brain impressions and the brain processes them and comes to conclusions about them; but it goes further, the mind infers from what is being experienced and makes decisions based on that inference.  This capability is highly developed in humans and has allowed us to evolve in every way to the point where we are and to continue that evolution as we continue to remember and reflect on “what if?”

Aside: Could it be that all of organized life has decision making capability and because of it, organized life is itself responsible for Darwinian evolution?  Those elements of life that in their reproduction phase make a decision with whom to reproduce.  Voila, the incremental change takes place in the next generation.  Repeat this millions of time and here we are, the result of all the incremental decisions made before us.

We tend to surmise that there is a continued existence after death.  If the senses stop functioning at death, then in what way does the being continue?  This is where, for this humble philosopher, the idea of permanence enters the picture.

The senses are our link with the physical world and we go beyond that realm when we remember, imagine, and reach conclusions upon which we base decisions.  It could be that the sensual link becomes less and less important as the being, comprised of brain-body and Master, increases his abilities in these higher order features.  Then when they are perfected, there is no need for sensual perception/ impression and the being continues on that higher plane.

That higher plane may be one that is not constricted by time and place but one that is experienced without sensations?  That’s just it; the spiritual world exists without matter and energy.  It may be a realm of ideas. 

If sitting here we are a current brain-body inhabited by a Master who exists over many lifetimes while permanence is developed, then the glimpses of the past that creep through from time to time are explained with the concept that some personae become permanent as well.

It could even be that Master is comprised only of those personae who have achieved permanence and who collectively gain more and more insight into what it takes to exist on that next higher plane. 

Those that are permanent at the death of a brain-body are faced with a decision to go on, or not.  If not, that’s the end of it.  At some point though, when enough of the proper, correct, right personae have become permanent, the process may accelerate and permanence becomes a foregone conclusion.

It is more plausible to think that a Master, along with permanent personae from previous lifetimes, form the basis of the spiritual side of the being.  Although one has to ask, when did this Master first begin?  It may be one persona who at the beginning found permanence and began the process which continues and is reinforced by other permanent personae through each lifetime until critical mass is achieved and the physical world gives way to spiritual existence.  Then what?

Starting with Appetites

What are the symptoms?  Some are easier to spot than others; probably the easiest is obesity, next most is smoking, and then the nouveau riche.  There are many other appetites that take over the rational functioning of the being, some even to the point of what is termed addiction, i.e., the irrational quest to induce a desired effect on the brain-body.  What starts out as a pleasurable experience eventually turns into a dependency that can be emotional, physical, or both.

Rather than get all involved with addiction, this essay is going to deal with the satisfaction of appetites and what it means to the long range development of permanence.

There is the struggle that goes on between the satisfaction of the appetites for what is here and now and the longer term progression of personae to permanence.  Fame, fortune, power, gluttony even on a reduced scale, and dependency on psycho-physical effects of relationships, substances, and even objects are all pitfalls of the here and now.

What draws us to repeat an effect is that on some level the experience of it was pleasurable to us when we were able to do it without a negative experience.  For some substances and feelings that may be the first time; for others it takes longer to become inured to the less desirable effects of the experience.

Think back to the first beer or the first cigarette; both of these required some will, some resolution to get past the undesirable taste and feelings associated with the act.  But when the taste was acquired and the ill effects no longer reviled us against the act, there was pleasure in the physiological and psychological aspects of the act.

Aristotle was perhaps the first to espouse moderation in all things.  Yet even this common sense approach to the pleasures of life connotes that there are some experiences that are desirable to the point of forsaking prudence.  The first step in fulfillment of our major aim is to take control of appetites.

We are here as servants of Master, our major aim is to serve him.  Ideally all that we do would be for the sake of his development into permanence.  There is however more to the picture than that; survival of the brain-body is fundamental to making strides toward permanence.  The survival is physical and emotional.  It isn’t enough to live for a long time and experience nothing.  Experiences of personae using the brain-body in dealing with them are in some cases those experiences that Master needs to complete his development.

The death of a brain-body is of little consequence to Master because he has the option to return to another as often as he wants.  But conversely the continuing maturation of the personae of a brain-body to deal with the experiences that Master needs for his advancement is productive to him.  He would, if the conditions were right, want to keep a brain-body alive and functioning as long as there was cooperation in his development.

When a being forsakes his purpose of being the servant of Master in favor of the here and now, he invites the reaction wherein Master, who is mute and eternally patient, simply backs out of the picture and allows the chips to fall where they may.  Often resulting in what is considered to be a premature end to the individual in question.

This is not to say that pleasure and enjoyment are not good, quite the contrary.  It is to say that there is no good to be had when pleasure of the brain-body  becomes the end instead of the means. 

We live this life to develop permanence.  Master exists for the purpose of taking his place in the firmament of those who have achieved permanence.  This would include those personae along the way that have achieved permanence; these personae become one with Master and, as part of him, go to his next habitation and so on until full permanence has been achieved and Master and these personae no longer iterate through the physical world but move on to another plane of existence of which we know nothing.

Are there memories

That come along with our birth

That transcend lifetimes

The answer to this is, yes.  These memories take the form of familiarity with situations, locations, circumstances, and people with whom we come in contact in this lifetime.  The memory is more of experiencing an impression such as that we may have had in a previous lifetime. My sister and I experienced this together in Serbia when we saw the train station there.

Another situation for this sensation is when I’m setting a table.  The impression I get is that of being a rough and tumble sailor on a sailing ship brought in to do mess duty in the captain’s quarters; handling his fine china and silverware with my gnarly, workaday hands. This and the train station are only two of many “familiar” situations in which I have found myself.

All of us have experienced this sort of thing.  It could be during the execution of a simple task, all of a sudden we get the impression that we've done this very thing; and of course we have, maybe even yesterday, but the impression that we get is far deeper than that of doing this same thing yesterday or even last year.  This is not to be confused with déjà-vu.

There is no way of knowing if any of this is true.  There seem to be two possibilities at death; one that Master and his cortege continues and the other that this is the end of it all.  Pragmatically it seems to be the latter but glimpses of the above, coupled with what I've come to believe, lead me to think that the other is possible.

The only way to find out is to experience death but I’m not ready to do that; there is too much work to do to serve Master in achieving his permanence.

On a Downhill Grade

It’s been a while since I wrote something and now there’s something on my mind that needs expression.  It concerns the house of cards that we have built in the world.  Not everyone is affected by the structure of our American economic society but most are and it isn't a comforting picture.

The president and one of the major political parties here are engaged in what can only be described as Brinkmanship.  A term coined when it was first recognized as each of the two parties to a standoff is waiting for the other to give in; each having a position of enough power to avoid the other from getting everything it wants.

The amount of debt that this country has is not inordinate for the value of the economy; it is, however, a very large number in sheer size and to default on the payment of interest on it would signal a crack in the walls of the economic fortress America

The value of any currency is relative to the confidence that others have in it.  If I wanted to borrow value from you with money that you think is worthless, you won’t lend it to me.  With currency, that confidence is measured against other currencies and the value of precious metals and other valuable assets that aren’t depleted with use.  Here we’re referring to gold, silver, diamonds, gems, land, art work, and collectibles of various sorts.

So by flirting with the confidence in our economy these two parties are risking the value of our currency and, therefore, the value of the one-third of our country’s population that is living on a fixed income from retirement investments.  This segment of the population is sensitive to inflation, which is a danger when the world loses confidence in the US dollar.

At the same time, the president and his liberal democrats have upped the ante for participation in the economy.  The entry requirements now include health insurance, a cell-phone (preferably a Smartphone), a personal computer, and a car, thus making the argument for an ever escalating minimum wage. 

Entry level jobs are shrinking and those who have them are insisting on higher wages because it simply takes that much more to live in our modern, digital society.  The response of employers is an ever decreasing number of people on the payroll, causing a decrease in the number employed and an increase in the number of people that rely on assistance of one kind or another from government food stamps and Obama phones to dependency on missions and charity.

The appetite for technology is fueled by marketers who make last year’s model obsolete; having it and using it makes one a pariah among his more affluent peers.  The lure of technology is cast in front of an ever younger set of consumers so that children are clamoring for it; and if Jimmy’s mom lets him have one then why can’t I have one too.

 There is no answer/cure for any of this.  As long as the money supply expands and the liberal attitude of “Why not?” is in vogue, the train will accelerate; “When we reach White Oak Mountain, You just watch old 97 roll.” And just like the “Wreck of the Old 97,” we’ll find the government “in the wreckage with his hand on the throttle, Scalded to death by the steam.”

A Look Back Four Years

Author’s note: this is something I wrote several years ago; I found it today and the question  is still there.

May 2, 2009: This is the 1^st Saturday in May and the 135^th running of the Kentucky Derby.  It is cloudy and cool.  We will go out later.

Yesterday, the body of James Hotchkiss was put in the ground.  I arrived at the cemetery just in time to see it poised over the hole, and then lowered into the grave.  He ended his time on earth at age 71.  His wife, Ernestine, of 55 years, took good care of him for the past several years as one calamity after another besieged him.

This is the 40^th notebook.  The last on spanned from 2-11 until 4-20, or 79 days.  At two pages per, that’s 50 days, almost every day.  I don’t intend to write every day even though I have it on my daily task list but it usually works out that way. 

(There are robins nesting above me on a horizontal run of downspout under the deck and they are wondering how they will get to their nest with me sitting here.  That’s their problem, I’m sure they will figure it out.)

I didn’t set out to write 39 notebooks plus 100 pages or so of printed notes beforehand but that’s how it is.  I haven’t re-read any of them at a sitting; although I may have referred back from time to time.  It seems that if I do the review exercise at Bernheim, I should not only take the log but also the notebooks from 2004.  That would expand my recall of how it was and how I was thinking at the time. 

(The robin is still wondering.)

I seem to be at a point of practice.  I have deduced, pondered, rationalized, and examined; I’ve reasoned and analyzed; I’ve observed and studied; and now I am at a place where I must put into play those results.  I have begun to do so in many endeavors, especially in golf and pool.  I know what needs doing and I am working on doing it.  There is a gap between knowing and doing; it is an experience gap.

 

Yet, especially in moving activities, there is a level, a set of personae, or at least one who knows what to do, because he’s seen the pictures in imagination, and he may even do it from time to time.  But for some unknown reason he can’t be relied upon to do it every time.  Either another gets in the way, or he’s not up for it, or whatever, but he isn’t able to take charge and get it done. 

This is true especially in golf.  They are not such a simple set of movements that they can be repeated faithfully without a lot of practice; and I mean a lot.  Yet there is a set of them, that when peformed, result in a good shot. 

It is bringing that knowledge and control to the intellectual part of the golfing persona that practice enables.  To focus the entire golfing persona on the desired result, knowing what is desired, able to produce the movement to get it, and exclude all other influences from the scene.  This is what it is all about.  And it is the same for pool.  In both sports I am at about 30% of being able to do this.

All of the endeavors are similar in this regard.  They all have an underlying game strategy that has to be executed.  Some are more complex; some are not being pursued diligently, some could be excised from the list but I won’t.  Of all the things in the world to do, I keep coming back to these 18.  It is as though I am committed to them, as in most areas of my life, “I said I would do it, so I guess I’m stuck with it.”

I often think of doing other things but keep coming back to these.  Some are on the list but not really pursued.  Yet I keep them on my list to be reminded that if there is time this is what I’ll do.  Meanwhile I make time for golf, pool, and others.

I need to spend less time writing and more time doing.  Yet, from time to time, take the time to write just to keep some order in my thinking, to stay on course, to stay focused.

So my writing may delve deeper into endeavors and details of same in order to hone in on the necessary knowledge, theory, and imagination.  The amount of practice, performance, is to be a larger proportion of lifetime now that I have a good basis of understanding.

Lately I have been struggling with the concept of life.  It is difficult to define, although, I have described it previously and effectively.  But with all of its forms is it a biochemical process?  Well yes it is on the physical side but there is a non-physical side as well.  The biochemical is going on but it is directed, intentionally.  And this is the part that is giving me pause.  What is this other aspect?

The biochemical is enabled by the substances existing here on Earth.  The intentional is an added aspect that defies definition.  It is individual, yet it is also organizational.  At times it seems to spring from somewhere else, some other influence besides the individual, even besides the influence of others.

The well-spring is from within somewhere.  The inspiration of artists and performers, and demons, i.e. the terrible, all seems to come from beyond the mere biochemical reaction that allows for the reversal of entropy.

(The robins are getting bolder.)

It is within this capability, allowed by the biochemical reactions, that the development of beauty and ugliness occurs.  It is the source of this that intrigues me.  It is the source of this that I can’t seem to fathom.  A ship floats, it sails, and it then proceeds on a course to a destination.  What/who sets the course?  Yes, there’s much more than I know but it is the wondering that interests me.

(I’ll go now and leave the robins in peace.)